Farewell 2017 Welcome 2018

I truly believe that life is a journey of self discovery, this physical life we live here on the earth plane, its purpose to enhance and progress our spirit and soul in eternity, I have been on my own personal journey of discovery since Christmas day 2010, the day I broke up with my girlfriend, I decided enough was enough I could not keep living life that way, and decided to find myself through my spirituality, I can honestly say that 2017 has been the best year so far on that Journey, with the previous years being the building blocks to it.

Now everyone knows I am a healer and medium, all the years I walked in darkness, I craved to be seen for what I am. in hindsight that emotion was very stupid, as I was being very much what I am not, the full circle of karma came around, and on Christmas Day 2010 I was free to become again what I was, and more importantly to become a better version of my past self, the journey of the past 7 years have been absolutely amazing, with a gradual progression each year in mind, body, and spirit. With 2017 being I feel a plateau and foundation for 2018 and beyond, although 2017 has not always been a bed of roses, I found myself grieving heavily for my dad who passed away in October 2015, during this time I found my spiritual awareness, swinging wildly between the psychic and the mediumnistic, which made me question my own mediumship and my link to spirit.

I have come through it all with a better understanding of myself, and my link to spirit, and I know now my purpose in service with angels and spirit, is to shine my light from the heart, so bring it on 2018 we are ready for the future journey ahead, there have been many things happen in 2017, that make me feel so very blessed, passing my D1 driving test, my friendship with the lovely Marina, we have had some great times in 2017, the best being when she demonstrated mediumship with me for the first time at Slough Spiritualist Church in October, and our holiday in Turkey in June, my friendship with Kevin and Linda and the work we do together with spirit, being invited to Mark and Kitty’s Handfasting Ceremony, at Stonerigg Circle near Ulverston a beautiful sacred place, seeing Romeo and Juliet and Much Ado About Nothing at Shakespeare’s Globe, my lovely new girlfriend Veronica, she has been walking beside me on this pathway since July, maintaining my weight loss keeping my diabetes2 in check, the simple joy of living that life is, now my mind and heart are clear I now see beauty and wonder in the simplest things.

I am now so very excited for the new year as it is a new page in my lifes  progression, and to shine my light for all to see and what blessings. it may bring to others, my personal spiritual development, my service with angels and spirit, working spiritually with Marina, Kevin, and Linda. Where this future pathway will take myself and Veronica,  2018 I open my heart to you and embrace you, thankyou in advance for all blessings to be received.






Message of the BirdSong

Drinking coffee as the early morning awakens my consciousness, listening to the message of the birdsong, opening my mind to the power and beauty of creation within, I have written much of the undiscovered creation of the future, they say that life is the daydream within the mind of God, I am the dreamer surely God is not sleeping, as my consciousness is within the mind of God, does this mean I am sleeping to, this life must be a lucid dream in which I change my surroundings friends, lovers, home, and work, to create my perception of the life I desire.

As I sit here writing it dawns on me that people, are happy to remain within there creation, shunning change at all costs when change comes, causing much hurt to there accepted normal, change is the engine of life it happens within and around us everyday, do we not grow old from cradle to grave,  should we not attain the wisdom that growing old should provide, my body is 57 years old but my mind still young and open to new things, seeking change and all life has to offer.

The message of the birdsong tells me that everyday is a new day, in heart and mind and anything is possible, as all change comes from heart and mind, and that I should always seek to better myself, in anyway I can, not only in material ways better car nicer holidays, but to seek and to grow in heart and mind, to be able to weather all that life throws at me with Love, Kindness, Compassion, and understanding. So that I may rise above all that wishes, to pull me down into the abyss, of anxiety anger and doubt.

Not many people realise that life is a journey of self discovery, much more to life than the journey of cradle to grave, life is a state of mind in which our spirit learns and grows, to remain in a state of comfortable ignorant inertia, we deny ourselves the opportunity to learn and grow, we may have the bigger house, flashier car, exotic holidays, the more attractive woman, but we cannot take none of that with us, although we need to earn coloured  paper and shiny buttons, to survive and be comfortable in this material earth plane, wealth in heart and mind enriches us throughout eternity, as our spirit grows and shines more brightly, within the light of God.

I have been blogging now a year today, and have written 30 blogs I hope you have enjoyed reading, I have documented my journey over the past year, as you can see it has not been easy at times, but I sit here so thankful in all I have experienced, as I fully intend to go on creating myself, with all that life intends to teach me, I am thankful for the message of the birdsong, for reminding me that all things are possible, when we grow in heart and mind and focus on being the best we can become, not only for ourselves but for all around us, and when I am called back to the spirit realm, it will be the riches of heart and mind I will be taking with me, knowing my deeds good and bad will echo in eternity, the message of the birdsong beckons in 2018, telling me to do what I love to do, and be the best I can be.



Stephen Rowlands 26/12/17


My Christmas

My spirit guides want me to post a blog to mark my year of blogging have written a blog ready for publishing boxing day my blogging anniversary but my guides came to me as I took my Ronnie into the now moment this Christmas Eve a beautiful moment where hearts entwine a moment of love in this tapestry of time what more can I add to the message of Christmas that is not already written Christmas is the magic of the heart that can be conjured 365 days of the year open the heart of kindness and compassion no religion needed just love


Shine My Light

My spirit born into this physical life, to experience all emotions to live and learn how to love. It has not been easy for this fish out of water, to live this physical earthly life, programmed from birth to be like everyone else,  blessed and burdened with the gifts of spirit, I was the round hole trying to fit the square peg, now I see it was all a waste of time, the peg would never fit   I would have fared much better, if I had just been me focussing on my truth and not lived the lie, I was not meant to be like everyone else.

No longer will I hide my darkness behind my light, I will live in my truth and power and accept all that is within me. I am an Angel and a Demon my legacy in this life has been insight, healing, kindness, compassion, hurt, and pain, for the hurt and pain I have caused please forgive me, to those who have caused me hurt and pain, I forgive you all that matters is here within the now. I was sent to this earth to be a blessing to many, through my foolishness I wasted many a year, searching for what I am not, to you Great Spirit I apologise, to the mothers of my children I apologise, to my two sons who I left behind, I never ever stopped loving you and never will, I fought my battles loved and lost.

Realising to seek acceptance from family and peers is the journey of the fool, when acceptance of the gifted self, is the wisdom of the seeking heart and mind, many regrets have chained me down from the past, the deceivers lies slashing at my heart,  finding solace in booze and speed did not comfort my heart only to amplify my bitter rage, as the hungry maggot gnawed at my guts. Living life at each end of the spectrum,, giving messages from spirit teaching mediumship, working the door drinking fighting, No longer will I listen to my demons lies, freeing me of the chains of regret, I hear the gentle loving whisper of my angel within, telling me to shine my light for all to see. 



 Stephen Rowlands 20/12/17










Walking away from the past, forward in motion no matter how fast I walk, I am trapped in the present. The future always just out of reach, although my conciousness perceives the future, happening all around me why do we perceive past, present, and future, as separate beings, when they are all here in this moment.

Time has no meaning in this moment, although I measure moments in time, now very aware of the spirit teaching that time has no consequence in consciousness, time only orders our physical and material lives, my body has a clock but my mind is timeless, fluid, youthful, and ancient, depending on my state of being. Why do I chain my mind to my being, I should allow it to be free to guide my being.

Life in a spiritual, physical, material, earth plane, is a state of mind. My life captured within this moment, with loving care my mind, will help my being to sculpt my here and now.


Inspired by my Spirit Guide Marvin 04/12/17


Inspired to take a walk on this fine sunny autumn day, with all good intentions I walk the canal toe path, to the chrysalis of my beginnings in langley, deeply inhaling the air of life, exhaling the stresses of working life, seeking my better and higher self, I used to walk this path in my youth,to visit friends or to be a marine cadet at T.S. Lion. Revisiting my memories was not my intention, we walk with our memories throughout our lifespan, awaiting in mind to torture or celebrate in heart.  Realising it is best to make good memories in the present, so my memories of now, will not become a heavy burden in the future.

The autumn sun shines brightly magnifying the colours of autumn leaves, the landscape has changed around here, there are now businesses and homes along the canal, where once were fields 


The peace and beautiful serenity of nature brings vibrant energy to my soul, in stark contrast to the industrial town that surrounds it, man and mother nature reside together happily in this place, we the human race are mother natures children, she gave birth to us all, we are her spoiled children as we take  from her, and pollute our mothers love.

Walking up the path to the bridge the Deseronto Wharf, where I once worked at Bryce Whites Timber Yard, has now gone but the office building has survived time, Lindley Thompsons is now a business park, walking over the railway bridge, I stand with my memories, back in time looking at the place I  once called home.



Perhaps this is the purpose of my journey today, to revisit my past and make peace with my memories, I see my nan looking out of the window, waiting for me to come home for lunch, The Gulley where we once played now flattened, swings and roundabouts now replace rusty old cars, the giants hill, the three wise old apple trees. Old Hobi the tramp who slept in Grandads pigsty, old nelson the chicken who we loved and ate one Sunday, my Grandad owned the gulley my Dad, family, and friends, built our bungalow, a great place to grow up and I feel blessed to have grown here. The Chesntuts pub across the road the social hub of our community, where we drank to celebrate our success or maudlin in our sorrows, my classroom from boy to man, as I walk down St Marys Road, I see myself as a schoolboy walking with mum for my first day at Langley Marish School.

The Almshouses built in 1649 where my dad did maintenance, a ceiling collapsed revealing the original mud and horse hair ceiling, and a rusty 17th century 9 inch nail, St Marys Church so many memories of family and friends weddings, christenings, and funerals.

I visit my nan and grandads grave, telling them of my life and wishing they were still with us, I would love to know what they think of me now, so many emotions and memories swirling within me, that I did not realise I could feel and see all this at once, I stop by The Chestnuts for a drink, no one did I know or recognise for we are all old now, realising now that time has passed and I am now a stranger, in the place I once called home. Night has nearly fallen as I walk the canal toe path, to the place I now call home, the love of spirit embraces me reminding me, that ghosts are memories, spirit is eternal, our home is with God, and in time all things change in our world.