Cruelty Of Time

Time passes by the clock ticks and tocks, my solar plexus fills with warm ripples of loving emotion, as the time comes closer to being with you, alas to soon the time beckons for us to be apart the hungry maggot awakes, feeding on my regret at leaving you gnawing at my emotions, my longing to be with you again begins before I depart, time can be so cruel.

Time ebbs away as our hearts and lips embrace, a serene moment in time, if only time would not tick and tock, then we can manifest the serenity of love in the moment, time falling into slumber but physical time moves forward in motion, our bodies will fade and die, time can be so cruel, the truth is our love will live forever within the mind of eternity, as I think of you  let our hearts not grieve for each other when we are apart, let our hearts be mindful of our love vanquishing the cruelty of time.   

IMG_20171225_154809 Stephen Rowlands. 11/02/18




In my weakness I embraced humility and it became my greatest strength, and in my strength I found my truth,  a child of creation born from the stars,  as all are creation, no greater than the sky no lower than the dirt,  gifted and flawed acceptance of myself and others is my virtue, and by the grace of creation go I, on mother earth I stand reaching out to the sky and stars above, balance in heart and mind, with  humility as my guide.


That’s Another Fine Mess

You walk away I put your case in your car, our eyes meet please don’t go are the words in our eyes, with you I have found the warmth of love within its loving embrace, the hungry maggot is ready to feed as I say farewell, drive safe, I love you, lighting my candles your warm loving energy fills my home, why did I let you go when your right place is wherever we maybe, together loving, holding hands, on this new journey, that together we unravelled from a brief hearts encounter, you gave me the teaching that I am ready to  love again.


Twilight Sky

Shades of pink, purple, and grey, colour the sky, as the sun falls

witnessing this natural beauty, calming  mind and body.

This servant of the day, in awe of natures loving gift.

Life has it’s span of years, the karmic circle of life. 

Aware that the human race is but a spec of sand, in the genesis of creation.

As I look up but cannot see beyond the twilight.

I am as big in my world, as an insect in his.

With humility I thankyou twilight sky.


Stephen Rowlands 12/11/17






Walking In The Autumn Sun Of My Life

In reflection of my life’s  pathway, all is lost and won, I have walked this far. Regrets of my thoughts and actions in past life fade away, as the unseen creation beckons me to new beginnings, the ever decreasing circle of physical life, aware that now I am walking in the autumn sun of physical life.

The time has come to prepare for the winter of physical life, as the sun will surely set one day, now is the time to gracefully accept old age, and take things easier, I floated on the breeze of life, never settling as my self illusion took me on many a wrong path, life and love all so confusing, when the lie becomes more favourable than the truth.

Knowing, living, speaking, writing, my truth with open heart for all to see and share, is not enough in this material world of money and possession, as I seek to settle somewhere, to write and create, with my lady to love and home comforts to share.  As I and we gradually fade away, on life’s physical pathway.

Stephen Rowlands 31 – 10 – 17 




Fill Your Hearts With Love

I went along one evening to a spiritual development circle, run by my friend Kevin Trefry, he said to me your not going to sit there and do nothing, I want you to give the meditation. I was a bit put out by this as I was very tired, and in need of recharging, I just wanted to just sit and enjoy the closeness of spirit. And do some of the mediumship exercises with the students, as I feel it is important to keep developing, and to maintain and strengthen our links with spirit, so I asked my spirit guides, what would be the best meditation to give to the circle. My spirit guide Jerome a Franciscan Monk came forward, and said ask them, to draw unconditional love from God into there hearts, to fill there hearts with unconditional love.

After the opening prayer I asked the students, to visualise the love of God, coming from above in white light, filling their hearts with divine unconditional love. The meditation began, myself and Kevin watched over the students, after 10 minutes or so I called the students back from their meditation, and I asked them each in turn, what they experienced during the meditation, and they all felt very empowered, and a great connection to all things, The lesson in the meditation is that love is the power of all things and is our connection to all things. 

The next day Jerome came to me, and inspired me with a poem, from the previous nights meditation. And I posted his poem as a blog earlier this year,



Fast forward to 22/10/17, I was inspired to give Jeromes poem as a reading at the divine service Jennings Street Christian Spiritualist Church Swindon. The poem was well received by those in attendance, Jerome then went on to inspire me with the address from the poem, he inspired me to say that love is a choice, as everything in life is a choice, out of the vast range of emotions that we can feel, love is the emotion that we rarely choose, when we are faced with some form of adversity or negativity in life. We tend to rely on our base instincts such as anger, confusion, jealousy, a loss of self worth. When people are horrible to us, or we make a mistake in life through our choices in life, all this comes from our ego our pride kicks in, and we react seeking to hurt those who have hurt us, or anger when our plans go wrong, making the situation worst for ourselves and those around us.

Let us step onto the back foot rather than reacting with hurt, let us seek the solution to our problems with love, and ask ourselves what is the best solution to this problem with love, rather than always choosing our base instinct ego, to solve our problems, causing greater disharmony to the spirit of ourselves and others, when we think feel and act with love, we are connecting to our higher selves, our soul the true part of us, that lives within what we call God, whilst our spirit lives and learns through our minds and bodies, in this material world of the earth plane. Love is a great spectrum of all emotion, at its lowest level we have hatred, anger, greed, jealousy, avarice, sloth. at its highest level there is divine unconditional love.

We spirits who live and learn in this physical and material world, find ourselves going up and down the sliding scale, of the emotional spectrum of love, let love be our choice in all things, to heal our hurt feelings and calm negative situations, let love be our guide, not only with family and friends, but in all things and with all peoples, and in doing so we are putting ego in its place, and making life better for ourselves and all around us, helping us to find the inner peace we so often crave, when I first got into spiritualism, I was taught it is a big part of our spiritual development, to turn negative into positive that is why we are faced with negativity and adverse conditions at times, I truly believe we are here to learn how to love, that is our spiritual purpose for being here, the ascended masters who teach through the religions who adopted them, they all teach love its about time we all pricked up our ears, listened to the teachings of love from the masters, take those teachings within ourselves and live them, because surely we are all fed up with the terrible things that are going on around us and in the world, it needs us to make love, kindness, compassion, tolerance, Our way of life and truth.



Whilst writing this blog, I was taken back to the time when I used to sit on the back doorstep, at home in Langley my nan would be cooking Sunday dinner. I would be writing inspired notes for the address for the service that night, I have walked through 2 dark nights of the soul in life, and in the dark night I missed those times, but feel very blessed right now those times are now back. With me so I say to all who feel they are walking in darkness, be true to yourself, love yourself, love life no matter how dark it gets, and the sun will rise again.





Some people say I am crazy, some say I am lazy, after all I am me.  Some fear some hold me dear, after all I am me. Some people look through me with green eyes, some despise,  after all I am me.

He has lost weight, he is always late, he has put on weight, he has cut his hair he would not dare, after all I am me. He is kind, heart on a sleeve, love is blind, after all I am me.

He is drunk, he is angry, he is sad. He is a fool, he is fighting again, after all I am me, you have seen all these things in the past, but still you cannot grasp I am me.

Look at yourselves and as you delve, you will find the God, who knows who I am, who are you