Recently sitting at home drinking wine relaxing on a warm summers evening, I asked myself and spirit the question “Why Am I A Medium” I know it is my purpose in life to be a channel for spirit, and being a channel for spirit has given me my niche in life where I can shine and contribute to this life, but why am I a channel for spirit, knowing spirit would answer my question through inspiration and synchronicity, it has been a long circular road to this point in time, back to the beginning to start anew, so I needed to know why am I a medium.
Who really knows what they want to be, a question we are asked when we are very young, tinker, tailor, soldier, spy, fireman, train driver, who can truly know what they are to become, life is a long road of choice and the experience of our choices, we get very confused on our journey, as to who and what we are, society and our peers tell us what we should be and become, inwardly we desire to be truly ourselves, and to be living life as to what expresses our innermost being, all I know is that life is a journey of finding ones trueself, and expressing and sharing that truth for the benefit of all.
We all have the beautiful gift of life and creation, our dance of life should be the creation of the best we can be, above all our creation should be love of self, life, and all we do, and to create with love as our power and guide, the essence of the teachings of spirit is love to share with all, it is love of self and life that is our dance, the best dance of all is the dance of service to others.
Many are called but few are chosen Matthew 22:1-14.
We are all called by God ( creation) to walk a spiritual pathway, in service to God to bring enlightenment upliftment, to heal pain to be the messengers of spirit and universal life.
It is those who do not truly have compassion in their hearts, who do not wish to speak spiritual truth from their hearts, those who wish to serve themselves, in the pretence of service to God, who are not chosen.
So why have I been chosen to serve God as a healer and medium, no matter how many times I have fallen off the pathway of service, I always get called back into service, my life’s journey is what it is and I have learned many lessons, the main lesson has been not to try to be normal, but to truly be myself not to seek acceptance of others but to gain acceptance of myself, my eternal connection to God and spirit through my heart, throughout my life I have been called into spiritual service, now the lesson is learned I feel now I am chosen, to serve God and spirit I have accepted myself and my connection, spiritual service is now my focus for the remainder of my earth life, service to God and spirit is the dance of my heart.
Memories far far away in time, of being a young 23 year old medium, just starting out on the spiritualist church circuit, sitting on the doorstep of home seeking inspiration, for the Sunday service address writing notes from my thoughts, my nan would be cooking Sunday dinner, blissful memories of that time.
I find myself today 36 years later, sitting on the decking of mine and Veronica’s home, seeking inspiration for tonight’s Sunday address, for service at Winchester Independent Spiritualist Church, my Veronica cooking Sunday dinner, the intervening years were a journey of self discovery, seeking the truth of what I truly am, a material man or disciple and servant of spirit many dark times ahead due to my bad choices as I endeavoured to balance earth and sky to find my place, in this life.
All through the years spirit have stood by me, especially in the darkest times even when I could not see or feel their presence, spirit were there guiding me to my truth, today I realise I have come full circle, I feel very lucky and truly blessed, that spirit have stood by me through all my bad choices and at times stupidity, the journey is now done and I can continue my path, as a disciple and servant of spirit, I feel so truly blessed for the love and guidance of spirit throughout my life, I say to all who are aware and serve spirit, live your life and truth to the full, because it is a journey of guidance, to the truth of your purpose in this life. Blessings To All 💜 Stephen Rowlands 28/07/19
The spiritual journey in this physical material life has many crossroads, when we have completed a stage of learning and service, a crossroads will appear and give us choices on how we proceed as the old path no longer serves us, as we are meant to progress further to greater service to spirit, a crossroads is a stopping point as we at times struggle to decide in which direction to go and grow, I have often advocated the value of a spiritual crossroads, as a time rest and reflection to realise we no longer need to continue on the same path, and allow spirit to inspire us onto the next step, many think of a spiritual crossroads as a state of inertia, as they cannot see a way forward to the next path.
A spiritual crossroads is there to guide us onto the next part of our journey, and has great value to us who serve spirit, but many do not realise this simple truth by clinging onto past glories and defeats, by doing this they are placing themselves into a state of inertia, because nothing will change as they keep reliving the same old story of what once was, I to fell into that trap by telling all and sundry about what I used to do, I thought people would remember me but soon realised I had been forgotten, I found the new spiritual industry to be a new world, from the spiritual world I had known, and I had to find my niche so I went around telling people what I used to do, my ego told me that platform bookings would soon be flooding in but they did not.
I considered with all my years of experience serving spirit, as a healer and platform medium that my stories could benefit, those people who are aware of spirit and beginning their spiritual journey of service to spirit. I have realised that my stories are no longer relevant to the spiritual industry of today, not many people today want to walk a spiritual path of learning and service, today it all seems to be about fame and money and who is the best, or whether your face fits or not, I have realised on a personal level that my ego was wrong, what I used to do does not matter anymore, my past glories no longer serve me, and now today with only a couple of platform demonstrations to do, and three demonstrations of transfiguration to do, I find myself at a spiritual crossroads.
Where do I go from here I have asked myself, I have asked the universe and my spirit guides if you want me to work with you, why have I so little to do where do we go from here, the universe and spirit guides answered me, my lovely friend Pauline Highams told me that my inspirational memes on facebook and my words have helped her and many others, it is very uplifting and humbling to know that just my five minutes a day, posting thought for the day on facebook is uplifting people, and that my blogs are also helping people gain guidance and upliftment, I recently had a conversation with my lovely Kiwi friend Lesley Wilson who talked to me of a course she was doing with Jarrad Hewett, about owning your own energy she was asked the question, who would you be without your stories, can we let go of our old stories and become the blank page, and abacadabra in a nutshell is what I feel my spiritual crossroads , is teaching me and guiding me to my future pathway, to let go of my irrelevant old stories and become the blank page.
This realisation has given me a breath of inspired fresh air, no longer will my ego bash me over the head, punishing myself for not doing what I think I should be doing, or being where I think I am meant to be, no longer shall I compare myself to others, I shall let go of my past stories to become the blank page, with no expectation of what is to come, focus on my thoughts for the day and spirit inspired writing, living and speaking truths of spirit through an open heart.
Vibrant waves of love flow from the centre of creation speaking the truth of love, to open hearts and minds calling you to act with love, our mission in spirit, is to spread the truth of love to all who seek, love is powerless without thought and deed for the greater good, the human race is biologically programmed to follow the physical law of self, for its own survival other than the law of spirit and life, all life is divine in essence, brothers and sisters of the human race come together as the human family, create the divine connection of oneness to each other and all life. Inspiration from Jerome Franciscan Monk and spirit guide 17/04/19
Awakening my mind to a new awareness evolving within, harmful emotions being washed away, ego is a comfortable room to sit in and dwell on the faults of others, my mind focusses on the pathway ahead, freeing me from my spiteful ego, fading out all distractions from my purpose to serve, creating a powerful heart space, new and open to be filled with love and spirit, who am I to judge how another walks this path, when I like them are called to serve, all that matters is how I walk my path of service.
At home from work in bed tired and weary after a night shift, 07/01/14 I was just dropping off to sleep, when my mobile phone rang “who the hell can that be” I thought, I answered the phone very drowsy and not in a good mood the caller a lady, introduced herself as the booking secretary for Cirencester Spiritualist Church, she told me that they had a cancellation for their divine service Saturday night, and she had found a piece of paper in her mediums book with my name and number on it, but she did not know who had given her my name and number, and how the piece of paper had got into her mediums book, the mediums she had phoned were all busy, so in desperation she thought she might give me a try.
I explained to the lady that although I would love to serve her church, Slough is a long way from Cirencester, would the church be able to meet my fuel expenses, myself and the lady agreed expenses at £30.00, the lady was very baffled as to how she had got my name and number, my only explanation was that I had served Stroud Spiritualist Church back in the 90’s, and perhaps someone from there had took my name and number to recommend me, and somehow it had found it’s way into her mediums book, she told me that is not possible, I confirmed with her that I would serve Cirencester Spiritualist Church at 19.30 hrs 11/01/14, we said our goodbyes and as I laid down to sleep, I thought this is a mystery but this service must be meant to be, and spirit must want me to serve there for some reason.
On 11/01/14 I made my way to Cirencester Spiritualist Church nervous and excited, about what my purpose could be for serving spirit there, it was a cold misty winters night I arrived with 45 minutes to spare, before the service began I was greeted with a warm welcome, as I introduced myself as the medium for the evening, it was a medium sized SNU Church, but looking around I felt it was a strict SNU Church this made me a bit nervous, as I had not demonstrated at this level for some time, as I am quite laid back and down to earth in my presentation of philosophy and spirit messages, I was also wearing blue jeans and a navy blue collarless shirt and white trainers, which made me feel quite scruffy and felt strongly from my spirit guides, that I should really smarten up to serve them in Spiritualist Churches, the booking secretary arrived and introduced herself, as we shook hands she said ” I really don’t know how I got your name and number” I replied ” it’s a mystery but lovely to be here” I was shown to a side room to meditate and gain attunement to spirit, my spirit guides gathered around me I asked them what is my purpose for being here, Red Cloud just smiled at me thanks I thought, I was very nervous but my spirit guides were coming around me, with such strength I thought just go for it.
The booking secretary popped her head around the door and said it is time, she led me to the platform the church was well attended, which was a refreshing sight as less people attend divine services, as compared to evenings of clairvoyance I took my seat on the platform, nervous and calling on my spirit guides to come closer, as I shut my eyes I could see my grandad and he said to me we are in the moment, I opened my eyes and felt a very strong emotion, as if it was my first time serving spirit at a divine service, I was truly within the moment with spirit, I cannot explain the emotion but it felt euphoric, I was very drawn to the 7 principles of spiritualism hanging on the wall to my left, and I realised that my whole life I had been living not always correctly to the 7 principles, the 7 principles are in fact universal law, my spirit guides were giving me thoughts about the 7 principles, I felt very stongly that the 7 principles should be modernised, as they were communicated to the level of understanding at the time, the 7 principles were communicated to spiritualism through the mediumship of Emma Hardinge Britten in 1871 this is 2014 I thought, understanding of spirit and how the universe interacts with us has changed, they should be reworded so they can be understood by all.
It came time to give the inspired address to the congregation, I stood up and explained that I was very drawn to the 7 principles of spiritualism, but felt they were out of date, and needed to be modernised, not the thing I should be saying in a SNU Church I exclaimed to laughter from the congregation, let us look at the 7 principles of spiritualism from spirits view.
1, The Fatherhood Of God
Today we understand what we call God as a great universal energy and intelligence the creator of all things, yes our father in biblical times but 2000 years later, we should update to oneness or empathy with creation instead of the fatherhood of god.
2, The Brotherhood Of Man
Have women not been created yet ( laughter from congregation ), when the 7 principles were communicated it was very much a mans world, women did not have the vote and had less rights than a man, now today we live in a age of equality perhaps this principle could be changed, to the unity of the human race, it would be more in keeping with the principle of the brotherhood of man, and would be a modern interpretation of this principle.
3, The Communion Of Spirits And The Ministry Of Angels
As spiritualists this principle is a cornerstone of our knowledge as is eternal life, the word communion by definition, is the sharing of intimate thoughts and feelings on a mental or spiritual level, spirit and angels communicate with us in thoughts and feelings, the universe communicates with us in thoughts feelings and synchronicities, it is not only mediums and healers that have communion with spirits and angels and the universe, everyone can communicate with spirit angels and the universe as we are all interconnected by creation, spirit teach that all things come from one source, and it is this one source that connects us all and everything together, spirit teach that thought is the most powerful thing in our universe, so let us all use our thoughts to communicate with our loved ones spirit guides angels creation and the universe, spirit angels creation and the universe will communicate back to us in different ways, but we have to be aware enough to perceive what is coming back to us, this is where spiritual development comes in and teaches us how to communicate on many levels, I feel the third principle could be simplified to universal communication.
4, The Continuous Existence Of The Human Soul
This principle is the spiritualist aim to prove survival the spirit and soul, after physical death and as we all know this truth is ongoing, but it is not just the human spirit that survives physical death, all that has life has spirit even a rock or a mountain has life and spirit, because everything can be broken down to atoms and atoms have energy, and it is a level of this energy that is spirit, that we have not invented a machine that can measure that energy yet, I feel this principle could be simplified to eternal life.
5, Personal Responsibility
We are all responsible for our thoughts and deeds in life, in this principle it teaches us to take responsibility for our thoughts and actions, how many times have we heard people complain about their lives, when in fact they are the creators of their lives, so they should take responsibility for how their lives turn out, and guide them to change their lives for the better, in universal law we are responsible for our thoughts and deeds as you give so shall you receive, I feel this principle should not be re worded because it is what it is, but I feel should be taught in churches and development circles.
6, Compensation And Retribution Hereafter For All The Good And Evil Deeds Done On Earth
This principle is very much universal karmic law, simply as you give so shall you receive in eternal life, there are many different levels of spirit as above so below, the level we go to in spirit depends on our thoughts and actions here on earth, spirit guides teach that we create heaven or hell in spirit, depending on our thoughts and actions on earth, this teaching should guide us to be loving kind and compassionate in our thoughts and actions here on earth, the truth is we create our own heaven or hell this could be brought up to date to, as you give as you give so shall you receive in eternal life.
7, Eternal Progress Open To Every Human Soul
This principle is very outdated and wrong, all that has life has soul whether human animal plant mineral, animals communicate with us from spirit, we can also communicate with elemental spirits, earth air fire and water all thing, from one source so all things have soul, and it is in this truth we can see the levels of spirit working here on earth, we can progress spiritually here on earth to raise our soul up another level, we can still do so in spirit we can also go backwards, depending on what level we choose to vibrate at through our thoughts and actions, this principle simply needs to be updated to eternal progress open to every soul.
The inspired address appeared to be well received by the congregation, after the next hymn it was time for the demonstration of mediumship, messages from loved ones spirit guides and angels flowed, there were tears and laughter and I was very relieved, as my nervousness told me I would not get anything, after the service three lovely people, Anne Cosh Barbara-Ann Winter and Mark Sloper, told me how much they enjoyed the service as did others, and they recommended me to other churches to serve, the booking secretary was very happy that the service went well as I was unknown to them, but how she got my name and number is still a mystery, but I suspect spirit played a big hand in it, she said she would re book me again but I have heard nothing more from her or the church.
Whatever the reason was for spirit guiding me to Cirencester Spiritualist Church, I do know that I have learned a lot from it, that I am still a medium and spirit wish to communicate through me, a lot of good has come from that service I have made friends and served other churches, and I thank spirit for the blessing of their guidance.
Christmas is a time when memories of Christmas past, come to the forefront of the mind, Christmas 2010 was to be a Christmas Day of great change for me, although I felt it was my worst time, it was actually the best time of my life, although my life was in tatters, hopes and dreams crushed I felt so abandoned, as if washed up on a sea shore my ship of life wrecked, cast out and alone a mere image of what I once was, I have written much of this time, but as I was looking through my facebook memories, my status for 27/12/10 was “A new journey begins letting go of the past, and embracing a new life”.
All roads lead to somewhere in this life, dependant on the pathway we choose to walk, I have realised that spirit can see the bigger picture of our lives, especially when our faces are in the dirt, and we feel broken and lost, it is most important to be true to ourselves, have faith in ourselves as the true path we wish to walk, will open up to us, the last 8 years have been a amazing time of development, to become we must first grow, I grew by unloading all my mental and emotional crap, becoming at peace with myself yes loving myself, walking a spiritual pathway as a healer and medium, all the progress I have made in life, has taken 8 years we live in a instant world, but inner development to effect progession in our outer world takes time, small steps are required to be taken, by those who seek to develop and progress, be prepared for a journey of soul searching and realisation, a journey of healing and enlightenment, not instant gratification and results, feeling very pleased with myself in 2016, my head and heart were in the best place they had been in years, but I had a question that needed to be answered, would I ever find a lady to truly love, to spend the rest of my days with, I did wonder if I was meant to walk my life pathway alone, but decided to try one last time.
I joined Match.Com yes a dating site you may scoff, but the ladies were not exactly kicking my front door down to date me, I had been on the dating site for almost a year, and was about to delete my account, most of the ladies I spoke to had more baggage than Heathrow, wanted someone a lot wealthier than myself, or turned there nose up at me because of my spiritualism, I was also losing weight due to my diet, and posting images of my slimmer self to the dating site, interest did pick up a bit, but as I said the interest was from all the wrong ladies, one night in June 17 I decided to end my time with Match.Com, when I logged in I noticed I had a wink from a lady, the lady was in fact my Veronica after a couple of weeks texting and chatting, we agreed to meet 13/07/17, I am very empathic and I immediately sensed from Veronica, the warmth and beauty of her heart, this is the girl I am looking for I thought, we clicked and started dating each other, although I lived in Slough and she in Winchester, the distance did not matter, as I know now we were truly falling in love, and we would take it in turns to visit each other when we were not working.
My Veronica August 2017
But living apart and distance did eventually become a problem, as it was becoming harder and harder to leave each other, when our visits came to an end, we had talked of moving in together, I used to say to Veronica it is a nice thought, but it is very scary in practice, and I did not want another life disaster on my hands, if it all went wrong, also giving up my flat in Slough would be a real wrench for me, as I loved my flat it was a lifeboat for me, to heal and rebuild my life, but as our feelings for each other grew. and absence from each other got harder and harder, we finally decided to make a home together, after a lot of talk about whom was moving in with who, myself and Veronica decided that I would move to Hampshire with her, I spoke to my mother and got her blessing, my mother said to me “it would be good for me to get out of the rat race, and into the country” on 08/06/18 I moved to Winchester to live with Veronica, now looking back today 01/01/19, it is the best move I ever made, a real leap of faith but I have landed safely on my feet, myself and Veronica plan to marry in September 19, since moving to Winchester we also use our home as a spiritual centre, I have named Spirit Divine for healing, readings, workshops, and demonstrations of trance, also I am serving new churches, some that I used to serve back in the day, I feel so very blessed today and so glad I took the small steps, inwardly and outwardly to where I am today, although we cannot always see the bigger picture, small steps towards our goals are the answer enjoy the journey, 2018 was a master year, to take charge and put in place everything we want in life, and I feel I have mostly achieved that, and I am very happy to share this with you all.
I sit down to pray in my dark room, visualising a white cross, to focus my love for healing, I find myself floating in the stars, looking down on mother earth, a jewel in the crown of creation, in awe of the starlight the realisation comes, I am floating in Christ light, it is still and silent the permanance of eternity, nothing can shatter this connection to all things, no ripples can disturb this divine space.
At one and conscious within Christ light, I must still my mind for the message to be heard, and understood in heart, he never came to free us from sin, he came to show us we are eternal, to look beyond ourselves to see our need for wealth status and power, are of little relevance in eternal life, he was not a saviour he came to guide us, to know the starlight Christ light is within us all, my heart now illumined in star Christ light, is the gift and knowledge he came to share.
Opening my heart to all that is draws me closer to spirit, I give thanks for the new day, conscious and alive the new day brings blessings in abundance, my mind becomes the open unwritten book, I am the creator within the magical genesis of creation, breeze blowing through the trees connects me to the energy of life, and love of all that is closer to spirit I am aware.
I offer myself in service to all that is, that I may always work towards the greatest and highest good for all, who seek to be closer to spirit, seeking the greatest and highest good from within myself, manifesting unconditional love my heart full to the brim, I walk with spirit a vocation, a calling, my reason for being closer to spirit.
There are a lot of people these days protesting, that spiritualism is not a religion, spiritualism in the UK had to become a religion, so that practitioners such as mediums and healers were not prosecuted, under the outdated witchcraft Act 1735, and to gain charitable status medium Helen Duncan was convicted under the witchcraft act, in September 1944 for claiming to conjure spirits, whilst I agree that spirit never speak of religion as there is no religion in spirit, and spirit do not speak of a god, they speak of divine light, no one can deny who has studied and communicated with spirit, the existence of a universal life and law, that spirit communicate to us here on earth as above so below.
The driving force of universal life is love, and it is love that spirit communicate to us here on earth, and the teachers that mankind built religion around all taught love, many who come into spiritualism in the UK, have come from a Christian background, and the cross in a spiritualist church gives resonance and focus to those from a religious background, who wish to learn more through spirit communication, how things work in the life hereafter and how to progress spiritually, and so enhancing there humanity, spirit guides teach that a church is a building a medium for them to communicate there truths, a group of like minded people meeting in a building, to commune the teachings of spirit is by definition a religion.
It depends on the energy of love and attunement to spirit within the building, that we and spirit can create together, the creation of love with spirit, depends on the level of attunement of the people within the building, hymns and prayers help us to gain greater attunement to spirit, taking us out of our material physical minds, to higher levels of attunement to spirit, yes all of this is religious ritual, but what is prayer but emotion and thought, spirit communicate to us in emotion and thought, and it is our attunement to love, that spirit need to communicate with us successfully.
Spiritualism has been crusading to prove the existence of eternal life, through spirit communication the facts of the communication proving eternal life, there is far greater communication with spirit, in the teachings spirit pass on to us, the teachings are of universal life and law, for we are spirit living learning and growing in a physical material world, to be a spiritualist is to live and walk with spirit on our earth plane, practising the teachings of spirit, and to be the true messengers of spirit, we must practice love, kindness, compassion, and forgiveness, in our thoughts words and deeds in service to spirit, there is a lot more to mediumship than giving messages, this is what being a spiritualist means to me.