In my weakness I embraced humility and it became my greatest strength, and in my strength I found my truth,  a child of creation born from the stars,  as all are creation, no greater than the sky no lower than the dirt,  gifted and flawed acceptance of myself and others is my virtue, and by the grace of creation go I, on mother earth I stand reaching out to the sky and stars above, balance in heart and mind, with  humility as my guide.



Shine My Light

My spirit born into this physical life, to experience all emotions to live and learn how to love. It has not been easy for this fish out of water, to live this physical earthly life, programmed from birth to be like everyone else,  blessed and burdened with the gifts of spirit, I was the round hole trying to fit the square peg, now I see it was all a waste of time, the peg would never fit   I would have fared much better, if I had just been me focussing on my truth and not lived the lie, I was not meant to be like everyone else.

No longer will I hide my darkness behind my light, I will live in my truth and power and accept all that is within me. I am an Angel and a Demon my legacy in this life has been insight, healing, kindness, compassion, hurt, and pain, for the hurt and pain I have caused please forgive me, to those who have caused me hurt and pain, I forgive you all that matters is here within the now. I was sent to this earth to be a blessing to many, through my foolishness I wasted many a year, searching for what I am not, to you Great Spirit I apologise, to the mothers of my children I apologise, to my two sons who I left behind, I never ever stopped loving you and never will, I fought my battles loved and lost.

Realising to seek acceptance from family and peers is the journey of the fool, when acceptance of the gifted self, is the wisdom of the seeking heart and mind, many regrets have chained me down from the past, the deceivers lies slashing at my heart,  finding solace in booze and speed did not comfort my heart only to amplify my bitter rage, as the hungry maggot gnawed at my guts. Living life at each end of the spectrum,, giving messages from spirit teaching mediumship, working the door drinking fighting, No longer will I listen to my demons lies, freeing me of the chains of regret, I hear the gentle loving whisper of my angel within, telling me to shine my light for all to see. 



 Stephen Rowlands 20/12/17









Walking In The Autumn Sun Of My Life

In reflection of my life’s  pathway, all is lost and won, I have walked this far. Regrets of my thoughts and actions in past life fade away, as the unseen creation beckons me to new beginnings, the ever decreasing circle of physical life, aware that now I am walking in the autumn sun of physical life.

The time has come to prepare for the winter of physical life, as the sun will surely set one day, now is the time to gracefully accept old age, and take things easier, I floated on the breeze of life, never settling as my self illusion took me on many a wrong path, life and love all so confusing, when the lie becomes more favourable than the truth.

Knowing, living, speaking, writing, my truth with open heart for all to see and share, is not enough in this material world of money and possession, as I seek to settle somewhere, to write and create, with my lady to love and home comforts to share.  As I and we gradually fade away, on life’s physical pathway.

Stephen Rowlands 31 – 10 – 17 




Circles of the Sun

Seeking the sunrise, contemplating sunset, creation gave all things life, I am alive, so I am creation. Free, limitless, and ready to put this power to the test, what is real life. Whatever I want it to be, surely the creation of creation is truth.

Embracing who we see ourselves truly to be, rejecting the fear of what others might think, is a great step forward. By dropping out of the norm crowd, we step into fresh invitations, from our new norm crowd. But at least we are more content, as we do not feel something is missing, with our new norm crowd.

Seeking out our unseen selves, is also a very valid exercise, the part of us that hides in the shadows, desperately wanting,  to live, breathe, and see the sun. Feeling the warmth of the sun on its face, it is dragged back into the shadows by fear, the fear of mockery or laughter, did not Shakespeare say, All the worlds a stage and each plays their part.

Nothing wrong with changing the part, as life goes on and we age, our needs and priorities become different, why should we accept the norm.  Become and be what we want to be, from the inside out it is not treading on any toes, it is living our truth, rejecting fear and speaking our truth.

Our inner selves soul and spirit, are truly the total composition of love, it is how we express that love, to all around us, family, friends, pets, colleagues, but we forget to love life. Our true selves loves life, and knows that life, is a sacred learning temple, that all of us physical beings are pupils.

Yet we forget heart and mind, and keep them imprisoned by fear. Instead of allowing heart, mind, love. To run free in the sunshine, the essence of self expression, from sunrise to sunset, in this circle of life.

Stephen Rowlands