Reaching Out

 Back in the year 1985 I was preparing to do a demonstration, at Guildford Spiritualist Church, it was a Sunday service so a inspired address, from my spirit guides was a part of the service, my guides had not given me any idea, on what they would like to inspire me to say, but we usually waited until a inspirational paragraph, from a book or a passage from the Bible had been read, then my guides would let me know what to say from the reading, as the reading would become the subject of the address, the vice president of the church at the time, a lady called Vanda sat opposite me, with a book on her lap entitled reaching out, on seeing this my guide a mandarin drew in close to me, inspiring  me with the words to say do we not all reach out for something.

We all reach out for the love of another, we all reach out to be understood by others, we all reach out for kindness compassion and strength from others, we all reach out to others to help us to be successful  in life, but few reach within to the spirit, where love, understanding strength, kindness, compassion, our drive for success are in abundance, we always look outwards for what we need in life, and it is the cause of a lot emotional pain, when we have the expectation for our emotional and material needs to be fulfilled from external sources, when everything we need for a wholesome life, in a material world are within.

It is a simple truth that all the answers we need are within us, many scoff at this simple truth, and prefer to seek answers from outside of themselves,  all we get from that is another persons experience, other than our own that maybe right or wrong for us, and can lead to further personal disasters and torment, looking within to seek the answers we need, means we are connecting with our own truth, and once the answers are found, we can action them and live by our own truth, but first we must put aside all external influences in life, breathe and be silently listening out for the inner voice, that tells us how we truly feel and the best way forward for us in life, the world and the universe is governed by freewill, it is the freewill of everything that effects everything in our lives.

Many feel useless to have any control over there lives, because they feel the freewill of everything controls them, and they could not be more wrong because it is us that dictates our life from within, to surrender the power of our own personal truth is a great betrayal of ourselves, to the control of everything, we are living life the way everything wants us to be, we must connect to the spirit within, seek out our own personal truth and live by it, and not be afraid of how others will perceive us, as long as the way we live life does no harm to others, why cannot we live by our own truth, as spirit we are love, kindness, tolerance, compassion, that is the beauty of who we truly are, so we must reach out with love, kindness, tolerance, and compassion, for ourselves and all others, this is the way and truth  of spirit.

Stephen Rowlands 15/02/18




My Thoughts On Modern Spiritualism


Sitting here  just breathing and being my thoughts come alive, and I will think out loud and share with you whatever my thoughts may be, well life has led me this far, and I must say I am very happy with where my head and heart is at right now, and the four walls I dwell within, it is a day I wish time would stand still just for now, as everything is just perfect here in my little flat, as I reflect on my life and look out into the future, many lessons are coming to me right now, the lessons I need for my future direction and path.

After much nagging I now realise I must adapt to the new spiritual scene, now an industry not a pathway of service, but even in this modern day spirit will use whatever medium they can to transmit, universal truth whether it be church or centre, as a medium I should have enough awareness, to be able to communicate to all levels of understanding, and in this new era I should be able to communicate, the truth in a way that people can understand, but it all seems to be all so ego based.  

Today’s spiritual scene seems to be more about marketing, than service to spirit and all, today celebrity status is the aim, in my day humility in service a spirit teaching, was our guide hundreds of miles we drove in all weathers, to serve spirit and demonstrate our mediumship, for petrol money now the bigger celebrity we are the bigger percentage we can take from the door, turning spirit into a industry means it has become status and profit driven, a lot of people criticise us old school mediums for doing it for expenses, but we did it for the love of spirit and our spiritual purpose to serve humankind, once we take the love out of service, it is then all about status profit and loss.


I understand that spirit need to communicate there message, to as many as possible, the spiritualist church is now dying a death, with attendance levels dropping, and churches closing due to lack of interest, the new spiritual industry is catering for those who want spirit without religion, which is fine as the universe of spirit does not have religion, and spirit rarely refer to what we term as god, what spirit do wish to communicate to us all, is the teachings of eternal life not death and how it all works, but this has all been shoved into the background, with proving evidence of survival repeatedly, to the same people over and over again.

Once evidence of survival after physical death is proven, do we really need it to be proven over and over again, or are we just testing the mediums, when I sat in spiritual development circle the spirit guide Li came through Ian in trance, he told us evidence of survival is needed for the newcomer to prove the existence of life after death, after that the newcomer can then begin there journey, of learning about universal life and the way of life, here on earth spirit want to teach, now spirit guides are shunned in churches and centres, and evidence of survival has become the mantra, at the cost of spiritual teaching spirit guides have so much to offer us, to develope spiritually to become better people, more at peace with ourselves and to lead better lives.

Loved ones in spirit who communicate there survival after physical death, sharing memories and giving advice to there loved ones on the earth plane, via a medium does bring much needed comfort and support to the bereaved,  so evidence of survival does have its place, in a demonstration of mediumship as the whole aim of spiritual mediumship, is to bring upliftment to people in need, messages  from spirit guides are very much frowned upon, I myself and other mediums have been banned from churches, for communicating messages from spirit guides, as the general consensus is that they are not evidential, which is rubbish in my view when a spirit guide communicates to a person, what exactly  is going on in there life, and descriptions of the personalities in there life, and the mental emotional and physical state of the person, that by its very nature is evidential because the medium, would not know that information about the person, so where did he/she get that information from, and to me this is also very much evidence of a afterlife.

Way back in the 1990’s I was serving spirit at Hampton on the Hill Spiritualist Church, the messages were all from spirit guides, but one particular message to a young man in his late 20’s early 30’s, was from Archangel Gabriel and Archangel Michael, they were telling the young man that he had got in with the wrong crowd, and it was destroying him at a soul level, and the Archangels gave the young man advice on how to free himself from this situation, that could possibly destroy his soul, and his soul could end up in eternal darkness, if he didn’t free himself of this condition, after the service the resident medium was very angry with me, shouting at me because I did not give evidence of survival, the booking secretary looking very disgusted said you were recommended to us, and you did not prove survival we wont be booking you again, my reply was I am here to bring upliftment to people from spirit  not prove survival, at that point the young man who I had given the message from the Archangels to, came out shaking my hands vigorously, he could not thank me enough for the message, he told me he was trying to escape from satanism, and he could not thank me enough for the power and wisdom that had been given to him from the Archangels, during his message the Archangels had told him how to link with them, to help him out of this condition and to protect him, I turned to the resident medium and booking secretary, and I said ”  there you go upliftment through service to angels and spirit, I do not want to serve your narrow minded church, up yours ” rude I know but hey ho.

By censoring angels and spirit as to what we allow them to communicate at public demontrations, is a real crime in my view how can you gag the eternal, how can you gag the teachings of a eternal way of life, angels guides and loved ones are all welcome to communicate there truths through me, by doing this I feel I am communicating fully, to bring the maximum upliftment to all who needs it, and I am very aware that as much as we miss our loved ones in spirit, they miss us to so connecting them with there loved ones on the earth plane, is a very loving service for me as a channel for spirit to do, but let us allow angels and spirit guides there voice, as they make us aware of the bigger picture,  as I have been serving spirit for 35 years doing public demonstrations of mediumship, I feel I have the right to my opinion.

received_195365207875990 My native American spirit guide Red Cloud

Stephen Rowlands 29/01/18





In my weakness I embraced humility and it became my greatest strength, and in my strength I found my truth,  a child of creation born from the stars,  as all are creation, no greater than the sky no lower than the dirt,  gifted and flawed acceptance of myself and others is my virtue, and by the grace of creation go I, on mother earth I stand reaching out to the sky and stars above, balance in heart and mind, with  humility as my guide.


What If

What if I were a superhero, with all the knowledge in the universe, what would I do with all knowledge in the universe, the choices I could make, the actions I could take, could be limitless and infinite, my choices and actions would depend on my heart, mind, and freewill, there is great responsibility in ruling the world, why would I want to rule the world and everything in it, for I have  freewill, so I should allow all life in the world, to choose it’s own destiny through it’s own freewill as I do mine.

What if with all my knowledge, the human race thought of me as a god, but I am not a god, I would simply be the consciousness of creation, all things born from the supernova 5 billion years ago, so therefore I am not a god, I would be a consciousness interconnected with all things in the world and universe, so my consciousness would work through all of creation, all life within our world in it’s many forms and states of evolution,  would it only be the human race that was aware of me, but I am connected to everything, so all life is aware of my consciousness.

What if with all my consciousness and knowledge, I tried to save the human race from self destruction, surely that would be wrong, as it would override the freewill of the human race, all I could do would be to inspire through hearts and minds, I could inspire through the greatest consciousness of all love. but if only the human race would open it’s heart and mind, as the human race has chosen greed and self over love, through love I would inspire the well fed to feed the hungry, those with shelter to provide shelter for those who have not, those who are at war to make peace with there enemies, the angry to seek out compassion within, the healthy to tend to the sick, the wealthy to distribute there wealth, for the benefit of human race and the planet.

What if I could make the human race realise from the supernova, they are all connected in truth brothers and sisters all, through love I would inspire them to break down the barriers, of nationality, colour, creed, religion, the need for greed and self. And help them to realise there is one truth, that simple truth needs many teachers, to teach of the consciousness of love, to the many levels of understanding within the world.

What if those that were aware of me chose to worship me, this would be wrong as through connection, my consciousness is within them all, I am them they are me, for those who are not aware of me, it is there freewill to keep there hearts and minds closed, through the conciousness of love and connection, I can help them to realise they are not billions of individuals, as the human race is a collective brothers and sisters all, through the choices of greed, selfishness, war, the consciousness of the human race suffers as a whole.

What if I could help the human race to look beyond it’s physical life and death, and realise consciousness cannot be destroyed or die, it is this simple truth that makes all things eternal, the simple truth is consciousness evolves as life on earth evolves, I will inspire the human race through it’s freewill is to chose love, because love is our greatest teacher, and through love the collective consciousness of the human race will evolve.

   Inspired by Spirit Guide Tutankhamun

Stephen Rowlands 07/01/18 NAMASTE




Farewell 2017 Welcome 2018

I truly believe that life is a journey of self discovery, this physical life we live here on the earth plane, its purpose to enhance and progress our spirit and soul in eternity, I have been on my own personal journey of discovery since Christmas day 2010, the day I broke up with my girlfriend, I decided enough was enough I could not keep living life that way, and decided to find myself through my spirituality, I can honestly say that 2017 has been the best year so far on that Journey, with the previous years being the building blocks to it.

Now everyone knows I am a healer and medium, all the years I walked in darkness, I craved to be seen for what I am. in hindsight that emotion was very stupid, as I was being very much what I am not, the full circle of karma came around, and on Christmas Day 2010 I was free to become again what I was, and more importantly to become a better version of my past self, the journey of the past 7 years have been absolutely amazing, with a gradual progression each year in mind, body, and spirit. With 2017 being I feel a plateau and foundation for 2018 and beyond, although 2017 has not always been a bed of roses, I found myself grieving heavily for my dad who passed away in October 2015, during this time I found my spiritual awareness, swinging wildly between the psychic and the mediumnistic, which made me question my own mediumship and my link to spirit.

I have come through it all with a better understanding of myself, and my link to spirit, and I know now my purpose in service with angels and spirit, is to shine my light from the heart, so bring it on 2018 we are ready for the future journey ahead, there have been many things happen in 2017, that make me feel so very blessed, passing my D1 driving test, my friendship with the lovely Marina, we have had some great times in 2017, the best being when she demonstrated mediumship with me for the first time at Slough Spiritualist Church in October, and our holiday in Turkey in June, my friendship with Kevin and Linda and the work we do together with spirit, being invited to Mark and Kitty’s Handfasting Ceremony, at Stonerigg Circle near Ulverston a beautiful sacred place, seeing Romeo and Juliet and Much Ado About Nothing at Shakespeare’s Globe, my lovely new girlfriend Veronica, she has been walking beside me on this pathway since July, maintaining my weight loss keeping my diabetes2 in check, the simple joy of living that life is, now my mind and heart are clear I now see beauty and wonder in the simplest things.

I am now so very excited for the new year as it is a new page in my lifes  progression, and to shine my light for all to see and what blessings. it may bring to others, my personal spiritual development, my service with angels and spirit, working spiritually with Marina, Kevin, and Linda. Where this future pathway will take myself and Veronica,  2018 I open my heart to you and embrace you, thankyou in advance for all blessings to be received.





Shine My Light

My spirit born into this physical life, to experience all emotions to live and learn how to love. It has not been easy for this fish out of water, to live this physical earthly life, programmed from birth to be like everyone else,  blessed and burdened with the gifts of spirit, I was the round hole trying to fit the square peg, now I see it was all a waste of time, the peg would never fit   I would have fared much better, if I had just been me focussing on my truth and not lived the lie, I was not meant to be like everyone else.

No longer will I hide my darkness behind my light, I will live in my truth and power and accept all that is within me. I am an Angel and a Demon my legacy in this life has been insight, healing, kindness, compassion, hurt, and pain, for the hurt and pain I have caused please forgive me, to those who have caused me hurt and pain, I forgive you all that matters is here within the now. I was sent to this earth to be a blessing to many, through my foolishness I wasted many a year, searching for what I am not, to you Great Spirit I apologise, to the mothers of my children I apologise, to my two sons who I left behind, I never ever stopped loving you and never will, I fought my battles loved and lost.

Realising to seek acceptance from family and peers is the journey of the fool, when acceptance of the gifted self, is the wisdom of the seeking heart and mind, many regrets have chained me down from the past, the deceivers lies slashing at my heart,  finding solace in booze and speed did not comfort my heart only to amplify my bitter rage, as the hungry maggot gnawed at my guts. Living life at each end of the spectrum,, giving messages from spirit teaching mediumship, working the door drinking fighting, No longer will I listen to my demons lies, freeing me of the chains of regret, I hear the gentle loving whisper of my angel within, telling me to shine my light for all to see. 



 Stephen Rowlands 20/12/17









Fill Your Hearts With Love

I went along one evening to a spiritual development circle, run by my friend Kevin Trefry, he said to me your not going to sit there and do nothing, I want you to give the meditation. I was a bit put out by this as I was very tired, and in need of recharging, I just wanted to just sit and enjoy the closeness of spirit. And do some of the mediumship exercises with the students, as I feel it is important to keep developing, and to maintain and strengthen our links with spirit, so I asked my spirit guides, what would be the best meditation to give to the circle. My spirit guide Jerome a Franciscan Monk came forward, and said ask them, to draw unconditional love from God into there hearts, to fill there hearts with unconditional love.

After the opening prayer I asked the students, to visualise the love of God, coming from above in white light, filling their hearts with divine unconditional love. The meditation began, myself and Kevin watched over the students, after 10 minutes or so I called the students back from their meditation, and I asked them each in turn, what they experienced during the meditation, and they all felt very empowered, and a great connection to all things, The lesson in the meditation is that love is the power of all things and is our connection to all things. 

The next day Jerome came to me, and inspired me with a poem, from the previous nights meditation. And I posted his poem as a blog earlier this year,



Fast forward to 22/10/17, I was inspired to give Jeromes poem as a reading at the divine service Jennings Street Christian Spiritualist Church Swindon. The poem was well received by those in attendance, Jerome then went on to inspire me with the address from the poem, he inspired me to say that love is a choice, as everything in life is a choice, out of the vast range of emotions that we can feel, love is the emotion that we rarely choose, when we are faced with some form of adversity or negativity in life. We tend to rely on our base instincts such as anger, confusion, jealousy, a loss of self worth. When people are horrible to us, or we make a mistake in life through our choices in life, all this comes from our ego our pride kicks in, and we react seeking to hurt those who have hurt us, or anger when our plans go wrong, making the situation worst for ourselves and those around us.

Let us step onto the back foot rather than reacting with hurt, let us seek the solution to our problems with love, and ask ourselves what is the best solution to this problem with love, rather than always choosing our base instinct ego, to solve our problems, causing greater disharmony to the spirit of ourselves and others, when we think feel and act with love, we are connecting to our higher selves, our soul the true part of us, that lives within what we call God, whilst our spirit lives and learns through our minds and bodies, in this material world of the earth plane. Love is a great spectrum of all emotion, at its lowest level we have hatred, anger, greed, jealousy, avarice, sloth. at its highest level there is divine unconditional love.

We spirits who live and learn in this physical and material world, find ourselves going up and down the sliding scale, of the emotional spectrum of love, let love be our choice in all things, to heal our hurt feelings and calm negative situations, let love be our guide, not only with family and friends, but in all things and with all peoples, and in doing so we are putting ego in its place, and making life better for ourselves and all around us, helping us to find the inner peace we so often crave, when I first got into spiritualism, I was taught it is a big part of our spiritual development, to turn negative into positive that is why we are faced with negativity and adverse conditions at times, I truly believe we are here to learn how to love, that is our spiritual purpose for being here, the ascended masters who teach through the religions who adopted them, they all teach love its about time we all pricked up our ears, listened to the teachings of love from the masters, take those teachings within ourselves and live them, because surely we are all fed up with the terrible things that are going on around us and in the world, it needs us to make love, kindness, compassion, tolerance, Our way of life and truth.



Whilst writing this blog, I was taken back to the time when I used to sit on the back doorstep, at home in Langley my nan would be cooking Sunday dinner. I would be writing inspired notes for the address for the service that night, I have walked through 2 dark nights of the soul in life, and in the dark night I missed those times, but feel very blessed right now those times are now back. With me so I say to all who feel they are walking in darkness, be true to yourself, love yourself, love life no matter how dark it gets, and the sun will rise again.