Spirit are always reminding me that I am in actual fact a healer, in this blog I will talk of some of the times, that I have been used as a channel for healing, or channelled that have had the most impact on me as a healer. Although this book should not be taken as documentary proof of spiritual healing, or my gift as a healer none of it can be proven, but it is all part of my life experience as a channel for spirit.
In 1983 I was on a high because I was finally expressing myself truly, being a channel for spirit and I had started serving spiritualist churches, as a medium but I still wanted to continue working as a channel for spiritual healing, I put an advert in the Slough Observer advertising myself as a medium and healer.
In answer to my advert an elderly lady telephoned me, who lived just down the road from me in the alms houses, she told me that due to a medical condition her right knee was very swollen and painful, she asked me if spiritual healing could help, I advised her that as a spiritual healer I could not promise her a cure, but I knew spiritual healing could help her on one level or another, greater inner peace or just to help ease the pain for a while, the lady visited me for spiritual healing the following Saturday, her right knee was very swollen I made her comfortable in an armchair, and asked her to just relax myself and my healing guides would do the rest, I attuned myself to me healing guides, and channelled healing energy to the ladies swollen knee, after 10 – 15 minutes my healing guides stood back to my and the ladies surprise, the swelling on the ladies knee had significantly gone down, and was not painful anymore the lady was very surprised and happy that the spiritual healing had worked, as I was showing the lady out my nan invited her to stay for a cup of tea, the lady was then happily telling my nan about the spiritual healing she had just received, and that it had worked.
I had another phone call from an Asian man telling me his mother was very sick with cancer, in Windsor hospital how much would it cost to make her better, I told him that I did not charge a fee for healing, and I could never promise a cure, he was not impressed with my statement, and asked me why I could not heal his mother for money, I explained that I could never promise a cure as each receives according to their needs, for their spiritual progression in universal life, also that I could never take money from sick people, I told him that I knew spiritual healing can bring relief from pain and help to bring peace to the sick, I would do my best to channel the healing to cure his mother, but there was no way I could guarantee a cure, the man seemed to accept that I could not guarantee a cure, and I agreed to go with him to Windsor hospital, l to channel healing energy to his mother. He picked me up at my home on the agreed day and time, we arrived at the hospital, he said I will stay in the car you go to my mother, and he gave me the ward and bed number his mother was in.
As I approached his mother’s bed I could see a frail elderly Asian lady, who looked emaciated by her cancer, it dawned on me that her cancer was terminal, I was quite nervous as at the time spiritual healers in hospitals was frowned upon, a nurse looked at me quite oddly as a young white male, visiting an elderly terminally ill Asian lady, I introduced myself to the lady she said to me “I give you money make me better” and from her bedside cabinet she pulled out a thick roll of £20 notes, I told her I did not want her money, and that I could not promise to cure her, she kept trying to give me the money, I told her money will not cure her, and healing would help her to be at peace and ease her pain, I managed to calm her down and the lady became still, I outstretched my hands to her, asked healing guides to come close and channel healing through me to the lady, I was concerned I might be thrown out of the hospital for giving spiritual healing, about halfway through the healing, a nurse came and put a screen around us the healing was very powerful for the lady, after about 30 minutes my healing guides drew back, and the healing was complete, I left the lady sleeping and I went to meet her son in the car park.
On meeting her son I told him I could accept the money his mother tried to give me, he became angry and started shouting at me calling me names, as he drove me home, he calmed down a bit and asked me if his mother was going to live, I told him that his mother’s condition was way beyond money, and that it was now between her and God, and that I feared she would probably die, and that her death would be a release for her, from her pain and physical body into universal life in spirit, he began shouting at me as he dropped me off at home, calling me a charlatan he tried to give me £20 for my time, I would not accept it reminding him I cannot take money for channelling healing, he drove away shouting and being abusive towards me, this incident left a nasty sickly feeling within me, for a very long time how could they think money, could make their terminally ill mother better, I know people often go to spiritual healers as a last resort, and expect miracles to happen, it is in my teaching that each receives according to their soul needs, at times we are meant to experience suffering in physical life, for the growth of the eternal soul, it is also a simple truth that money cannot buy health, so please whatever your condition please visit a spiritual healer, when you are first diagnosed with a serious illness, I know at the very least it will bring pain relief and peace to you, and help you with the growth of your eternal soul.
I have not sought permission from the people concerned, to publish the following account of healing, as I have had no contact with them since 1986, to protect their identity, I will change their names for the purposes of this account.
Way back in 1984 I was at home with my parents, it was a Friday so it was our weekly fish and chip night, as we were waiting for my dad to return from the chip shop, my mum told me of her friend at work, who has a granddaughter who was suffering with stomach cancer, her granddaughter Sarah was 3 years old, Zangu my Zulu guide told me the cancer was in her stomach, but had progressed to her lungs, I told my mum what Zangu had said and my mother replied how did you know” I told my mum that my Zulu guide had told me, my mother went on that Sarah’s grandmother Anne, had tried to get Sarah an appointment with spiritual healer Ted Fricker, a respected and well known healer at the time, but had only managed to get Sarah’s name on Ted Frickers healing list, I told my mother that Ted’s healing list very probably had thousands of people on it, and the healing Sarah would actually get would be limited.
Zangu kept saying to me that we should give Sarah healing, I gulped and offered our healing services to mum for Sarah, to my surprise my mother said that she would talk to Anne at work Monday morning and see what she said, Monday evening my mum told me that she had spoken to Anne, and that Anne would speak to Sarah’s parents, and sent thanks for the offer of spiritual healing for Sarah, 3 or 4 days later Anne phoned my mum telling her, that Sarah’s parents would try anything to help their daughter, but they wished to meet me first to make sure I was not a weirdo, the following week myself and mum and dad went to meet Sarah’s parents and grandparents at Sarah’s home.
I was nervous about the meeting but it was Zangu’s conviction, that him channelling healing energy through me could help Sarah, that encouraged me to go through with it, it was a positive meeting I explained how Zangu would channel healing through me, and the family gave me and Zangu permission to channel healing to Sarah, on the proviso that Sarah’s dad Dave was present in the room, which was no problem at all, the following week we met to channel healing to Sarah, Dave showed me up to Sarah’s room she was lying fast asleep in her cot, Dave sat down beside the cot and I called on Zangu to step forward for Sarah’s healing, the healing was powerful I could see healing colours shooting from my fingers, and into Sarah’s stomach and chest, the healing lasted for around 20 minutes, when downstairs Dave told me he could feel spirit joining us in the room, and he could see the healing colours shooting out from me and into Sarah.
Dave telling me what he experienced during the healing was amazing, as he had no experience of spiritualism or spirit before, and this very much encouraged me as to the strength of the healing being given, and to continue with Sarah’s healing, Sarah’s patents asked me to visit once a week to channel healing to Sarah, I agreed and my parents agreed to bring me to Sarah’s home once a week, this went on for several weeks, Anne told my mother that the doctors could not work out, why Sarah was not losing her hair as she was receiving chemotherapy.
I told my mother that Sarah not losing her hair, was due to the strength of the healing being given, on one particular visit Sarah’s home her grandfather Albert, asked if there was anything they could do to help, whilst me and Dave were upstairs with Sarah, so I got my parents Sarah’s grandparents and mum sitting in a circle, and taught them how to send absent healing to Sarah, this was a great idea as it would really boost the healing being given to Sarah, and would help them make a valuable contribution to Sarah’s healing, we continued to visit to give healing until Sarah was diagnosed, as being in remission from cancer, and I continued to send Sarah absent healing from home, a couple of years later Sarah was diagnosed as being all clear from cancer, and Sarah’s family sent us their thanks and gratitude for our part in Sarah’s recovery from cancer, a few years ago my mum told me that Sarah was working as a consultant in a NHS hospital, and that Anne once again had sent her thanks, to this day I am so glad to have been a part of Sarah’s healing from cancer, helping her to grow into the amazing woman that she is, also I thank Zangu for nagging me and believing in me as his channel, as I lacked the confidence to put myself forward for Sarah, I am also thankful with the greatest gratitude to Zangu and healing guides for Sarah’s healing.
Wondering how to write about my 37 years of service to spirit, I cannot remember everything in chronological order, but I have many memories, and often find myself relaying those memories to others, by saying I will tell you a story, a story that fits in with the conversation at the time, and hopefully inspires and teaches at the same time, so now with this blog I will relay to you my memories, and I really hope you enjoy reading my story.
During my time of sitting in development circle and attending Slough Spiritualist Church, there were a few people who would encourage me, on my spiritual pathway as a developing healer and medium, but there were also a few who saw me as a complete upstart, due to my young age and inexperience of life, there was a lot of talk about me some to my face and some behind my back, as to my suitability to become a platform medium, and unfortunately some would speak unkindly about me to the demonstrating medium that evening, two mediums I remember in particular were Marjorie Nolan and Mrs Weekes, Marjorie Nolan said to me one evening from the platform, that I was not spiritually gifted at all and maybe in 10 years time, I maybe able to pick up a glimmer of something from spirit, and to stop wasting spirits energy, and that I would never be good enough to work on the platform, the church was full everyone looking at me as she tore my character and my personality to shreds, with a very smug looking Frank the church president smirking at me, I was 19 years old and I felt totally decimated when I left the church that evening, Mrs Weekes was just plain horrid to me on and off the platform, one time outside of the church, she asked me my star sign, I told her my star sign was Gemini, she then ripped into me telling me all that was negative about being a Gemini, the real dark side of the star sign and she told me that the dark side of Gemini was me.
One evening I walked into church and sitting in the foyer, was the lovely medium Mrs Brotherton, a medium who always demonstrated with a lot of humour, as her spirit guides would always show her pies and sausages floating above peoples heads, Frank the church president was arguing with a lady about me, saying that I would never make a platform medium, the lady arguing in my defence saying how would you know he has a lot of life ahead of him, I did not know what to say so I went into the church and sat down, although I was angry with Frank for talking about me in that way, during the demonstration of mediumship Mrs Brotherton came to me with a message from spirit, telling me I was very gifted and one day a door would open, and all my gifts would be waiting for me, and many people would come to watch and listen to me, and through the gifts of spirit great teaching healing and upliftment would be given through me, I was obviously over the moon with the message, I had received from spirit as it was a endorsement of my spiritual pathway, and service to spirit, also wiping the smug smirk off Frank’s face was pure gold, although 39 years later I have not reached the state of development that spirit spoke of that night, I live in the knowledge that life is a process of spiritual development, and all will come at the right time if I continue to develop, so I say to all young and old know in your heart that you wish to serve spirit, stay within your truth and go as far as spirit wish to take you, I knew within my own heart that I had found my niche in life, and serving spirit from the platform was something that I was going to do, no amount of criticism was going to deter me from my purpose and pathway.
In 1982 I had not sat for spiritual development for 2 years, my spirit guides were constantly saying to me, “We want to work through you on the platform” this nagging went on and on, until finally I gave up and said to them “OK I GIVE UP YOU WIN, I WILL WORK ON THE PLATFORM, BUT IF I MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF, ITS ALL YOUR FAULT.” And I started writing to local churches, offering myself to serve their churches on the platform. As I had not opened to spirit for a couple of years, except to send out absent healing , or channel healing in the healing sanctuary, I needed to re establish my link with spirit, so I joined a open development circle, at Slough Spiritualist Church. The circle was run by a guy called Harry and his lady wife, I have never liked open circles as I feel they are dangerous, because people can come and go on a weekly basis, so the energies change, a lot because of this also you don’t know what level of spirit people are bringing in with them, but this open circle had a few regular sitters, so it should be ok to sit, and attune my mediumship with spirit again.
We sat typically male female next to each other, to balance the energies the idea being, that the male energy would protect the female energy, if a lower form spirit got into the circle. I was sat next to a young lady named Sue, every week she would bring through in trance, a spirit claiming to be Mary Queen of Scots. But something did not feel right with this spirit, so I went along to Langley Library, and researched the life of Mary Queen of Scots, now armed with the necessary information, I went along to open circle to check this spirit out, but methinks this spirit was one step ahead of me, and was aware of my plans to check her or it out. As we sat I spoke to the spirit, as it was coming through Sue in trance, Sue’s head was turned to face me, her eyes were big and jet black her face contorted with anger, the vibration of rage, became stronger and stronger in the room. As this spirit was moving Sue’s head to look at other sitters, the spirit seemed to be linking with other sitters, because as soon as she had looked at them, the sitters were overcome by a strong feeling of nausea, a couple of people started vomiting.
My breathing got deeper and deeper, it was my Zulu guide Zangu, starting to come through me in trance, I was very happy for Zangu to come through, and allowed him to do so, as I had no idea of how to get rid of this evil spirit. Through me in trance Zangu, cut the energy lines between the evil spirit and the sitters, people were starting to recover, then Zangu turned me towards Sue and the evil spirit, and channeling very powerful energy through me, looking out of myself I could see lots of different coloured, beams of light shooting out of me, reds, yellows, blues, coming from me and into Sue’s aura, to expel the evil spirit from her, a couple of minutes later the evil spirit was expelled from Sue, and sent back to wherever it came from. Zangu stepped back from me but my oriental guide Sun Si Sin, stepped into me in trance, and spoke through me to the circle about protection, he reminded the circle to make sure the circle was protected, as well as each sitter should make sure they are protected, as there are low level spirit that are attracted to the light of the circle, and will want to attach themselves to the sitters, as was the case with the so called Mary Queen of Scots.
My oriental guide stood back and I regained my senses, Harry then appeared to go into “trance,” and he said virtually what my oriental guide had said, I was a bit put out by this, but hey ho each to there own, I was glad the circle and sitters were safe. I was also perturbed by the lack of understanding, for the need of spiritual protection, as it had been drummed into me at Berenice’s circle, I had put my protection in place during the opening prayer, that is why I was unaffected by the low level spirit, which was good really as someone with protection, and strong spirit guides was there to sort the situation out. I only needed this circle to regain my attunement to spirit, so would only stay in it for as long as was necessary.
On another evening in Harry’s open circle, he wanted to try out new things with us, so he asked each of us to bring in a personal item, so we could do psychometry on each others items, and give readings from the items, for those who do not know what psychometry is, everything is energy and energy has its own vibrational frequency, so everything we wear or touch, we imprint our own vibrational frequency on it. those who are sensitive and can read and understand vibration, are very good at psychometry, you could give someone a reading off their socks if necessary, simply because the wearer had imprinted their vibration onto the socks, I do get some funny looks when I say that but it is true. I had already done some psychometry in Berenice’s circle, so was happy to do psychometry again, as it would help with my attunement, as being able to read vibration as a medium is very important. As spirit do communicate a lot with emotion, and yes our emotions have their own vibrational frequency, to as I said everything is energy.
I was handed a silver pocket watch by Hannah one of the sitters, as I held the pocket watch in my hand, within my minds eye I could see an old man digging up cabbages, I felt strongly the old man was Hannah’s Grandfather, and that he had trouble with his knees in life, I relayed this information to Hannah, and she confirmed the watch belonged to her Grandfather, and that he had an allotment, and one of her memories of him, was of him digging up cabbages on his allotment. I was pleased I was able to pick this information up, and connect Hannah with her Grandfather, I passed the pocket watch back to her, and she gasped I said what’s a matter, she said this watch has not worked for years but now its working, and sure enough the pocket watch was ticking away, I cannot say why the watch started working, after years of not working, but it confirms to me Hannah’s Grandfather was with her.
I left Harry’s circle a few weeks later, as I felt it had served its purpose, my attunement to spirit had been regained on a mediumnistic level, on 5th January 1983 I did my first ever solo platform, at Slough Spiritualist Church, this was a big test for me and spirit, for me to prove to myself and others, that I am a platform medium, and for spirit to back there mouth up and work through me on platform, as they had been nagging me to do, for the previous 2 years the night was a success, and I was now assured that spirit truly wanted to work through me on platform, doing public demonstrations of mediumship.
I was approached by Ann Pert a stalwart of Slough Spiritualist Church, and medium of 40 plus years, a sweet but very strong lady who was in her mid eighties, to demonstrate mediumship for her spiritualist group at the old Slough library, I was very honoured to be asked by Ann to serve her group, as she was a knowledgeable and respected medium, as I was in between jobs at the time, I agreed to serve spirit at her group on a Wednesday afternoon, the Wednesday afternoon came along the meeting was held in a large room on the second floor of the library, I walked in and there was Ann with around 30 pensioners sitting in a circle, Ann then dropped the bombshell, that she expected everyone to get a message from spirit, I told her I did not think I would be able to give everyone a message, but would certainly give it a try, after the opening prayer I commenced to give messages from spirit, the energy was very strong that day, and we managed to give everyone a short message from spirit, although afterwards I was very tired and mentally drained, there was one old gentleman who has remained in my memory since that day, alas I cannot remember his name but during his message, spirit were talking to him about his automatic writing, for those who do not know what automatic writing is, it is where spirit guide the hand of the channel, to write the words they wish to communicate, afterwards he struck up a conversation with me about his automatic writing, as I remember a very interesting conversation, as he had been automatic writing for years, he visited me at my home a couple of times to show me his automatic writing, he had thousands of pages of writing containing teaching and messages from spirit, if only it could have been made into a book, it could have helped so many understand the workings of spirit life and the universe, a lovely man and a true servant of spirit, I will always remember him,
I began writing to churches to see if they would book me to serve them as a platform medium, back in the day before email and facebook that’s how we did it, to get cancellation work last minute bookings when the serving medium, could not demonstrate that evening, one of the first churches that got back to me was Maidenhead Spiritualist Church, as the medium had cancelled for that evening, she told me that she had tried ten other mediums, but they were unavailable so we thought we would try you, at the time I used to walk right in front of the person to give them their message from spirit, this led to a few complaints as people in the congregation, liked to see and hear the medium from the front not twisting their necks around to see the medium, I replied that’s how I work, I was told they were happy with the work done that evening, but if I wished to serve their church again, I had to learn to speak from the front of the church, so from that day on with my guides we learned to give messages from the front of the church, although the energy seemed weaker from the front, but it gradually grew stronger and it was a very valuable lesson for me to learn.
I learned in Berenice’s circle to take my shoes off when working with spirit, for earth power, as spirit are a form of energy, that we have not learned how to record and measure as yet, but it was best to be earthed for safety reasons, as you have an earth on an electric plug. And to draw natural power from the earth, so I went around the church platforms, demonstrating mediumship not wearing my shoes, I became known as the medium who takes his shoes off, one night at Hayes Spiritualist Church, I kept my shoes on as the church had been flooded, and the floor was still wet, I was concerned I might get a bit of trench foot, but was also concerned blocking earth power may affect my link with spirit, but my need to protect my feet won, I went onto the platform and demonstrated mediumship, the demonstration went well, and after the demonstration a guy sitting in a wheelchair with no legs approached me. He said to me “my guides are telling me you should keep your shoes off when on the platform” he had never seen me demonstrate before, and had no knowledge of me not wearing my shoes whilst demonstrating, WOW I thought what a way to teach me, spirit send me a man with no legs to tell me to keep my shoes off, I will never ever forget how spirit got the message to me, that night and often use that memory, to teach students how spirit work.
I met a lot of lovely people at Hayes Spiritualist Church, and I have fond memories of them all, particularly Bert, and Rocky, Margaret Hanks, Anne Walker, Annie, Ida Escott, Derek Thurlbeck, and Mark Deville. I remember one night giving Derek Thurlbeck a message from platform, his Egyptian guide was telling him via me, he was going to move away from mediumship and teach spiritual philosophy, the world had enough mediums it needed more teachers. Derek was very put out about this message, and he approached me angrily after the service he said to me, ” I am going to be a medium, I am meant to be a medium not a philosopher, you got that all wrong.” I replied “we shall see” 10 years later I was at a church somewhere, and a person said to me “do you know Derek Thurlbeck” I replied yes I know him the person, told me Derek had now given up his mediumship, and was teaching philosophy, well blow me down I replied, I told Derek 10 years ago he would be doing philosophy, and he did not believe me, teaching me we should never doubt what spirit tell us, because they can see the bigger picture a lot more than we can.
One of the platform mediums of the day who I really admired, and looked up to was Derek Markwell, very energetic, funny, and a great communicator for spirit, I suppose I actually took on some of his style when demonstrating, because the way he would communicate the address and spirit messages, in a down to earth way would really touch people on a heart level, raising the energy and vibration making spirit communication so much easier, for spirit and Derek as the channel, rather than some of the more flowery monotone mediums of the day, his services were very uplifting for all those who attended.
I was serving Ashford Spiritualist Church one summers evening in 1986, it was a Sunday service, I was met by Sheila a lady who I knew from Bracknell Spiritualist Church, she informed me that Derek Markwell who was now sadly suffering from MS and his lady wife were to be present for the service, can you imagine my delight and terror knowing one of my platform heroes, would actually be sitting in the congregation watching me demonstrate mediumship, and the thought of Derek being in the congregation quite honestly terrified me, it was like all my spiritual development and myself were under the microscope, as Derek Markwell was a medium who I truly respected, as I stepped up to the platform I took my jacket off to hang over the chair, swung my jacket round from my shoulder and knocked a vase of flowers flying, smashing the vase and flowers on the floor, “Oh Shame Where Is Thy Blush” I really wanted the ground to open up and swallow me, I could not apologise enough, the congregation erupted in laughter and I was hoping the destroyed flowers were not a bad omen for the service.
From experience myself and my spirit guides settled quickly to regain our link, as it is the quality of the communication that is paramount, not the mediums embarrassment, it came the time to give the inspired address, I looked at Derek and he looked back at me with so much support in his eyes it was very humbling for me I looked at my guides and said to them “Lets Do It” and we carried on after the service, Sheila came to me and said to me “Derek wants to speak with you” OMG I thought he is going to tell me I’m crap, and that I was under developed to be a platform medium, as he struggled to walk towards me on his walking sticks, I said to Derek “its ok Derek I will come to you” he replied Its ok son I will come to you, he walked up to me looked me straight in the eye and said, “you carry on son great service you carry on” I was absolutely relieved he did not tell me off, and it was so amazing to be encouraged by one of my peers, I told him he was one of my heroes and that I had always admired his work, he said don’t be daft son we do what we do for spirit, I will always treasure this memory.